good company.

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Since I came here, to Germany for five months, I still can't really, with all my heart, enjoy my time here, because I miss my family and my friends so much.
And before coming here, I was thinking about it, I knew it's going to happen, but I was telling myself that new places, new people, new adventures will be so inspiring that it won't be that hard.
But now, I must say, although these new things are really inspiring, the heartache sometimes seems unbearable.
And at these moments I start asking myself - why I came here? What I was willing to find? The grass is always greener, isn't it?
But I really thought this new place will help me to find myself, to find some different parts of me that can't be reflected in my usual environment, when everything around me has some expectations on me.
And then the answer was given me:

There's no way of knowing for sure, where the safiest place is, so the best you can hope for is to have some good company.

xoxo,

Ak.
P. S. yes, that's me on the right :).

[..] doesn't mean I'm lost.

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Crispy leaves and sun beams flashes through my eyes as I'm wandering once again in the street, which I do not know (one thing I always know about it - it's not the street I need. I mean, seriously, how does it always happen like that??), and yes, it's already 3 weeks since I'm here on my own in Germany..

It's just the way it goes. I've always depended on the kindness of strangers :).
But the strangest feeling that I'm always carrying out here with me since my arrival is that I'm somebody.
A man without the past. It's like we don't have anything with us. Hand luggage only.
Have you seen How I met your mother episode about our personal baggage? This is the main idea I want to tell you now.

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I lost my baggage. I lost my studying WTF sciences, my laughs at everything she sees, my the best story teller (perhaps it's due to a language barrier..) and my has a depresion every 2 months baggage.
And perhaps many ohers.
It's some kind of freedom, some kind of eliminating yourself or it's better to say what you've been.
It's time to become somebody you can be.
Man is an onion made up of a hundred integuments, a texture made up of many threads. (~ Herman Hesse, one of my favorite books - Steppenwolf)
And the first layer is always brown, because it reflects the surroundings mostly.
But you have to find chances in your life to become another layer.
So my hugest wish in life is perfectly defined by Katherine Mansfield - I want to be all that I am capable of becoming.
You know where I found this quote?
This summer when me and my parents where staying at my mother's hometown (which is small & absolutely lovely town!), we went to a cafe for lunch and there was a book of quotes on the table. While we were waiting I've turned some pages and accidentally read this.
You never know what you can find. Serendipity :).
Have a nice week, my lovelies!
xoxo, 

Ak.

what up!

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Today I've just realized that the next episode of How I met your mother I'll be watching in Germany. Oh so soon.
So I've got a little sad, but, when I'm starting to feel that way, I stop being sad and get awesome instead. True story.
Here's my 10 favorite Barney Stinson quotes:  

• If you are not sure, ask yourself, "What would Ted do?" Then do the opposite. 
  
  
• A lie is just a story ruined by the truth.
  
  
• God, it's me, Barney. What up? I know I don't talk to you enough, although many women cry out your name during sex. Awesome!
  
  
• The world is coming to an end. As predicted by Nostradamus. Notre Dame. Fighting Irish. Irish. Saint Patrick's Day. It's your last day on Earth, Bro. Brocopalypse now. Bromaggedon.
  
  
•  He's the awesomest, most best-lookingest, greatest guy ever! Lily: He's exactly like Barney. Barney: That's what I just said.

• Jesus waited three days to come back to life. It was perfect! If he had only waited one day, a lot of people wouldn't have even heard he died. They'd be all, "Hey Jesus, what up?" and Jesus would probably be like, "What up? I died yesterday!" and they'd be all, "Uh, you look pretty alive to me, dude..." and then Jesus would have to explain how he was resurrected, and how it was a miracle, and the dude'd be like "Uhh okay, whatever you say, bro..." And he's not gonna come back on a Saturday. Everybody's busy, doing chores, workin' the loom, trimmin' the beard, NO. He waited the perfect number of days, three. Plus it's Sunday, so everyone's in church already, and they're all in there like "Oh no, Jesus is dead", and then BAM! He bursts in the back door, runnin' up the aisle, everyone's totally psyched, and FYI, that's when he invented the high five. That's why we wait three days to call a woman, because that's how long Jesus wants us to wait.... True story.

• Did you sleep with her sister?...Sleep with her mom?...I'm losing interest in your story.

• Hey, Ted, you know what always picks me up when I'm down? Other people's misfortune.

• You dumped a porn star? Friendship over. FRIENDSHIP OVER. 

• You can do this, but to be more accurate, you probably can't. You're way out of practice and she's way too hot for you. So, remember, it's not about scoring. It's about believing you can do it, even though you probably can't. Go get 'em, tiger!
  
  quotes via Pastemagazine, Buzzpirates, Facebook, Zoranov Blog & Tv movie quotes